Caged
I watch my mother these days
I watch my father aging
Both, find it difficult to walk
I think to myself, "Do whatever it takes to always walk."
I'm sure they never saw a day
Their legs would betray them
Still ...
I will find a way
Even when I am their age
To move from this place to that
Because ...
Otherwise, you are trapped
I suppose I feel this intensely now
Because I have become as a creature in a cage
A captive in a life that has crippled me
I have become
Someone he built
Into something he so suddenly
and so easily
discarded and threw away
a partner
a companion
that no longer
served the purpose
of helping him from this day to that
He chose another
And left me
Inside this cage
Circling a maze with a broken heart
and mangled legs
I wake each day
Alone in a space
He once occupied along with me
Someone said to me, "I imagine the nights are the worse for you."
It is not the nights
It is the mornings that take my breath away
It is the mornings when I am reminded
That he sleeps with her now
that he touches her now
that he chose her now
that she and he have caged me into a space
where my mind and my legs
feel trapped in outrage
with nowhere to go and nowhere to stay ...
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