Window Pane

 

Window Pane

                

                        I saw him today

                        Through a window pane

                        Is he getting fat?

                        I hope he's getting fat

                        He doesn't look much different than the day he left

                        That will be the story of my life

                        Nothing has changed, and everything has changed

                        I have to change that story

                        I have to change everything

                        Right now, I don't know how to change much of anything

                        I'm trapped in a limbo and a vortex at the same time

                        Both ... he threw me into

                        It has taken an extraordinary amount of strength

                        I never even knew I possessed

                        To see him

                        So many days since he left me for her

                        To not say a word

                        To not lash out in hurt

                        To be in control of the anger that swells as a tornado inside of me

                        He told me once, "She's nice to me."

                        I told him, "How I have behaved, with dignity and grace, 

                            after all you have done to me, is indicative of how nice I am to you."

                        He just walked away

                            toward the meanness of his life

                            I hope I find someone nicer to me than him

                            That is the story I plan to write

                            For my life

                        In the meantime

                            I hope he gets fat ...